Friday, December 01, 2006

At school

I've realised just how much I don't like my friends anymore. It's just that their at a stage in their life (I hope) where they are completely flippant about everything and all they talk about is boyfriends and meaningless stupid things that are just a waste of time. I feel completely detached from them, in fact I can actually say that it is only S who is keeping me being friends with them. Also, I know they don't like me. Or to put it simply, they are completely indifferent. And I don't blame them in the slightest; I don't speak so why would they particularly like me?
I don't want to go to Nando's with them onThursday. And to be honest, they probably wouldn't notice that I wasn't there.

I hate Dad. It's him whose made me like this. I just feel like I can't connect with anyone. I can't have friends, only acquaintances.

That's another thing. Everytime I get to know someone, their traits just completely annoy me. And it's really stupid because to be honest, I have really irritating habits as well. But it's like I only like people who I don't know properly.

I wonder if going to Uni would change anything. Fatima will probably tell me next year.