If boredom kills...

...I must be a ghost.
Actually, no I'm a zombie so there's no way out.

Life is so boring. I don't want to go to school on Friday too.

The only perk for me in these holidays is the World Cup matches...lol...love watching them.

And I so wanted to watch France v. Spain today but I can't :(
Still...supporting Spain definitely, not that I have anything against France. Just really want Spain to win.

England v. Portugal on Saturday. England all the way!!
I'm just hoping the Portugal team don't go completely crazy and lose ALL discipline like they did against Holland. But to be fair, Holland went mad too. lol quite funny but I can't really see the England team retaliating..oh wait yes I can..Rooney definitely would go absolutely mad. I don't want to see that, Rooney scares me when he's angry!

Seriously the World Cup is preventing me from dying of boredom lol. Although the match yesterday, Switzerland v. Ukraine was quite boring. And I wanted Switzerland to win :(. Everyone says England are really crap but they are better than Switzerland and Ukraine!

Penalty shoot-outs are really cruel! and tense. I felt so sorry for Zuberbuhler, I think he just got nervous.

Yeah anyway today I thought of a little story to write. Well it wouldn't really be a story because it would be very short but I'm not entirely sure because I really feel like I can't be bothered to write it down. But I will!

Awww. "Bless the broken road" by Rascal Flatts is actually a very sweet song! I told Amina ages ago that it's really cheesy. In a way it is, but it's really sweet!

Go Spain for tonight!

Holidays..hmph

Well what else is there to say apart from the fact that they are completely boring. I have nowt to do. Apart from 2 hours or so stints on the computer.

All I do is listen to music at the moment. At the moment I am obsessed with "Unintended" by Muse. I have listened to it about 7 times already today. And "Time is Running out"

Hmmm I think I should get off the computer in a minute.

Off to read Sherlock Holmes.

Heat, Exams and slow computers...

....what do they all have in common?

Answer: They are pissing me off.

I have decided that I actually don't really the heat. It makes me really annoyed and irritable. And uncomfortable. And I have to do exams in this weather.

I hate the way it penetrates you and you just feel like you can't be bothered to do anything. I swear it dulls your mind.

I know the cold isn't much better but I think I definitely prefer it.

And don't get me started on my exams rant. Considering that it is entirely my fault that I have done minimum revision but I did have obstacles, so whatever.

I don't have any exams tomorrow so I am guessing I'll be doing Chemistry, Physics and History revision all tomorrow. Ahem. Who wants to bet that I'll actually do a lot of work?

God, I am in a really pissed off mood. Everyone is really annoying me for no reason. Like when they speak to me.

I want everyone to go away.

A "How high is your self esteem?" test...

You scored 52.
"Many people think you are confident and in charge of your life. You're not so sure! It may be that you had a difficult upbringing with parents who were too demanding of you. Or perhaps you have Always felt that you're not as bright as other people think you are. Or maybe you feel unlovable.
If you're in a relationship, it's likely that you'll Often feel anxious about it. Sometimes you may worry that you'll 'muck things up'. You may also have serious concerns that your partner will 'find you out' and decide you're not worth loving. "

Okay....don't know if this is true about me...
Comment about what you think.

A moan on sore throats.

Are contending for a place in my Annoying Little Things list. I hate sore throats, they can make you feel so crap, but they are a such a small thing. I mean, if you said "I have a sore throat" people would be (quite rightly) like "Who cares" But really they make you feel so rubbish. And slightly sick too.

Yay. Mum bought me some Soothers. Some short term relief.

Went to the library today and just for old times sake, got a Redwall book that I haven't actually read. The food descriptions are mouthwathering! I don't mean to sound patronising but they are really sweet. I love it that all the good characters are completely good, with practically no bad traits. And of course, that good always overcomes evil. I love Redwall Abbey too! I wish I could live there, but I don't think I'd fit in, because all the creatures at Redwall Abbey are so peaceful and virtuous, two things I most definitely am not!

Huh.

I have done no substantial revision. I have a vague feeling that I should be revising but I can't be bothered and the day just passes too quickly. Which is pretty weird, considering I just lounge around the house all day doing jack.

It's really stupid. When I get off the computer, I am going to sit down and do some work. And nothing is going to stop me. Nothing at all.

Stupid

I don't know why, but I really feel like I always want to be in this shell where I never have to do anything, like go out into the real world.

We (me, Polly, Fatima and Salima) were talking about Fatima going on campus etc. etc. And I was trying to imagine myself going on campus or something and I just feel that I don't want to do anything, ever. I just feel like I wouldn't be able to. I mean, I have a huge mental barrier there (like the leap of faith in the park) Like not wanting to go out and get a job. I just don't want to meet or even see people anymore...
I know that everyone else in this house feels like that because of our upbringing. Especially Sam and Fahad. And Fatima. It's so unfair. When we can actually have experiences etc. we're just not going to want to be there. I now understand the appeal of living like a simple hermit.

I know I'm not making much sense. I'm confused too. Oh well. It just boils down to the same thing, as it always does: Dad. Big surprise there.